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Sunday, September 24th, 2006
3:28 pm


this made me cry for 2 hours straight for 2 reasons

1. its about naruto sasuke

2. this song always makes me cry cause it gets me to start thinking about...stuff

naruto and sasuke should be together forever (and in the non- amercanizd version they are but..) yea...

i learned much today like

i never knew that sailor venus and neptune (off sailor moon) were gay togther

i didnt know kabuto liked orochimaru ( from naruto) and thats why he hates sasuke cause sasuke is backing up on his man and sasuke doesnt even like orochimaru like that so..booya bitch!

and i didnt know that ichichi paradise is about porno (from naruto)

and that envy rapes ed in the japanese series ( full metal alchemist) go figure huh?

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Monday, September 18th, 2006
2:06 pm - hey whats up
hi its me again

i had an emotional breakdown by a song/ music video on you tube if i find it i'll post it

it shows naru sasu ness but in a bad way... and its a spoiler for all you fans out there

i cried so bad

like i was heaving my grandpa came in and was like 'wtf ariel whats wrong?' and i was like 'nothing grandpa' and he ot mad and left

the song is 'my only one' by yellowcard and if your love sick or loveless dont listen to it cause it will make you cry like bad

but yea

i have narusasu ness everywhere on my folders hope my mom doesnt get mad at me for it XDXD

oh well she's a good sport so she wont be that ticked i mean its not like porno




but pretty damn close XD

ok well im bored and am gonna leave know see yea

current mood: hehe

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Sunday, September 17th, 2006
4:35 pm - ello motto
yea i had a fun weekend with my girlfriend

thats right i got one

and i also found out that life is worth living and not being taken away

DUDE EARTH DANCE OWNS GO HIPPIES!!!

it was lots of fun accept for the weed smell

i swear to god i got high from that smoke

and to make it worse a tree was following me the whole time

XD i swear i even fell and got a scrape on my hand because of it

i turned around and it was right in front of me so i freaked out and fell

;_; it hurts like bad and that damn tree still scares the crap out of me

current mood: wee

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Thursday, August 24th, 2006
8:44 pm
hello qwhats up everybody


i finally told off mike and know i hate him instead of missing him which is cool

kyle and i broke up we decided just to stay friends ^_^

and i think gage likes me


dude omg narusasu fic

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3115836/1/

hells yea!

fianlly a dominant naruto jeez

omg

i

love

leprachuans

XD ya mike had the nerveto post on my myspace and cuss at mee

what a bitch so i mad ethis picture of him and then told him that he was an immature faggot

yea it was cool


Free Image Hosting at www.ImageShack.us

haha jail bate

current mood: eeerg

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Sunday, August 20th, 2006
4:47 pm - yo
sup .... im so fucking pissed/deppressed/happy all at the same time ;_;

my mom needs to lay off on the orders becaus eits starting to piss me off

like whoa


omg NaruXSasu forever!!!

sakuras is a hooooooooo

shes the only ho i know with a big ass forehead XDXDXD

i love the new Evanesence song 'call me when your sober'

good song

anyway......yea

current mood: yo...im so retarded

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Friday, August 18th, 2006
11:09 am - dude...
okay yo im really pissed off at myself

like really badly


because i never tought id think the words i did last night

after a long talk with my dad i learned something

i still miss mike

i miss him like crazy

and thats why i hate him.

i hate him sooo bad its not fair why did he have to hurt me like that he lied until the very end..

so i took his cd that i still had

and crushed it in my hand

and know i have a hole in my hand

but at least i feel better and not so upset

although i still find it hard to forget about him..... ;_;

current mood: ...why?

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Thursday, August 17th, 2006
11:15 am - o,O
dude....kyle said that he loved me yesterday ^___^

omg my face got so freakin red its not even funny

he was like "ariel what the hell is wrong with you" and i was like

"....n-n-n-n-nn-noooothinnnngggggg" and he just smiled at me ^_________________________^

omg im so tired hres my schedule

health:no sleep

English: Sleep for at least 15 min.

lunch: mmm food

pre-algebra (yes im stupid) 20 minutes of sleep

tech: at least 15 min. of sleep

early childhood:no sleep

science: 10 min. of sleep

and im acing all of my class's AND!!! THE BEST THING IS THAT I HAVE FRIENDS IN ALL OF MY CLASS'S!!!!!

AND I MADE FRIENDS WITH A HOT GUY ^___^

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Wednesday, August 16th, 2006
11:21 am - ok...whats up
ok yea...once again not much to report...

besides that kyle got into a fight with some kid..

he kicked his ass ^__^

.....UG

im bored like crazy

me and my friends jenna were singing the mr.sandman song it was great evryone ws like 'WTF?!?!' IT WAS GREAT!!!

yea i got into a fight with my friend today ;_; he was being a jerk in....welll lately

current mood: ELLO LOVE!

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Tuesday, August 15th, 2006
11:28 am - ok...yo
HI!!!! LIKE OMG IM AT SCHOOL AND I JUST FINISHED READING A SASUxNARU FIC AND OMG IM SO FREAKIN HYPER BECAUSE I HAD THAT VAULT STUFF AND....OMG!!!

i have a stalker

his name is gage

he's pretty cool and really funny

and i love high school all my class kick ass and...yea

OG I LOVE NARUxSASU!!!! IT OWNS YOU ALL!!!!!

wait no....

YAOI OWNS YOU ALL MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! ~thunder in the background~

and for you other lezbionds yuri owns you ^-^

(don't worry it owns me 2 ;) )

OMG NOOO!!!NARUTO ALMOST GOT RAPED BY SASUKE!!!!1KNOW HE'S MAD AT HIM.....NOOOO!!!!! I SWEAR IF THEY DON'T END UP TOGETER I'M GONNA BE SOOOOOO PISSED!!!!!!

ok i have to go and read it some more

if you have any good fanfic sites tell me but they have to be one of the following:

SasuxNaru, InuxKag, InuxNaraku (i know i'm sick), or SasuxNaru ...oh wait i already said that...

I LOVE SASUXNARU LIKE SO BAD OMG!!!!

and if there not too wierd i'll read final fantasy any number.

current mood: WEEEEE

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Saturday, August 5th, 2006
4:27 pm - SORRY
Naruto was gay with sasuke sorry my bad XD

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4:19 pm - yo
ok whats up im still in a good mood due to amounts of food

dude


i
love
my
new
video
game

its the new naruto game ultimate ninja


omg the graphics kick ass

AND i also completely confirmed that naruto in the original japanese version ws gay with naruto the proof is on my myspace account which the name is on my profile...

is it ok to label yourself insane if your life just sucks so bad that you just laugh about it?

current mood: wow i be crazy

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Wednesday, July 26th, 2006
6:50 pm - ok i'm cool know
i feel better about everything and stuufis

chya


i love chels she's so cool

OMG!!

i guess since i talked about it feels better


how corny is that TxT

but i feel better andf hyper

XD

XDDDD
YER MOM

current mood: oh shit the popo

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Wednesday, July 19th, 2006
11:38 pm - no one can tame this animal i have become...
ARIELS CURRENT STATUS

self esteem- 25%

faith- 0%

sanity- still questionable

patience- is all gone

love for kyle- i don't know anymore


i was just told my cousin died in a motorcycle accident i don't know how but.....jesus man...what did i do? did i do something wrong?!?!?!

did..i say something wrong?

my lover left me and took my heart with him

my mom is becoming more mean by the days

i hate my sister no more love just blunt hate

kyle doesn't love me back

my sanity is disinagrating

what am i going to do?!!?!? i'm stuck I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE!!!

I TRY TO DO GOOD AND THEN GET FUCKED

FUCKING SCREWED OVER

ALL THE TIME

but the worst part of it all is that i can't do anyhting about it

i'm helpless

i feel like a deer in headlights i can't move and just waiting for the inevidable

~sigh~ ....i just don't know what to do?

its times like this i wish there was somewhere i could go to get away from all this hell and just find a sanctuary of my own to curl up in every once in a while but i share a room with my sister and i have to babysit all the time so i'm constantly surrounded by crying screaming babys

but what can i do about it?

nothing

absolutely nothing

i just have to sit back and watch them griddle my teeth

every

single

day

current mood: fuck it....

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Friday, June 30th, 2006
9:11 pm - i saw this coming still i don't know why i let you in....
~sigh~ god i miss mike

i know i sound like a broken record but...i miss him

everything reminds me of him...i had a dream about him last night

i had a dream that me and this really pretty girl with a lind fold on was in this room together talking about relationships when Mike came in and tried to get me

so i ran around the house i was in until i reached the room again with the girl and she held the door so mike couldn't get in and i tried to open a window and when i opened it i ran grabbing the girls hand hearing mike yelling at me made me cry and then i woke up

to nasty diapers and stupid sisters

what a life huh?

but yea so i'm pretty depressed today ;_; i'll get over him eventually

ARIELS CURRENT STATUS

self esteem- 0%

faith in god- 0%

faith in me- -1000000000000000000000

patience for every family member excluding Aiden (my baby brother)- so large of a number it couldn't be put here

sanity- questionable

current mood: GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!

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Monday, June 26th, 2006
1:00 pm - ugh i feel icky
yea last nightwas kinda deppressing

i talked to mike again last night and we got into a huge fight and he told me "I'LL BE WITH YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY" or something like that


it kind of creeped me out becasue..i don't know i just got a wierd feeling about it...

i guess its just me

i hope its just me

he is just being a jack ass and its kind off akward to see him act so strangley i guess i'm seeing his true colors about time i do because imagine if we actually....yea know...monkeyed around

KYLE IS GOING TO KICK MIKES ASS

god i love him ^__^

not to mention i'm loosing respect and self esteem for myself every day XD

but besides that i'm cool

if anyone who isn't my friend has a myspace BECOME MY FRIEND!!!....please?

current mood: .....basterd

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Sunday, June 25th, 2006
9:22 pm - yo!
i r at chelsea's house and i'm bored ja know?

i watched chelsea write a fucking awsome note to mike XD i feel so love know ^___^

so yesh

and this damn rat won't leave me alone and its cute but annoying

don't have much to report but the fact that probably 20 people want to beat up mike (and i'm serious too) not to mention Kyle wants to fucking bash his head into the wall ~blushes~ i feel loved *^_^*


i went to his house and we talked and he got SOOOO pissed off i'm pretty sure there's a fucking hole in his wall know

~looks at rat~ grr....your lucky yer so damn cute

rat tastes good

yes well me and my lesbioooond in crime are leaving know

~jumps in air and hits her head on the ceiling~

I'M OK!! just a small concussion

;)

current mood: rats r cool.

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Saturday, June 24th, 2006
12:59 am - ......the tears in my eyes belong to you
oh god....i never realized how deeply in love with him i truly am....

i almost took him back

i almost did...

thank god for music.....

oh god...that was the hardest thing i've ever had to i mean...god he tried so freaking hard to take me back he said all this shit and....omg the only reason i wasn't crying was because my sister was there and i wanted to be strong in front of her but...i'm not strong i'm weak and lonely

he tried so hard...he told me how much he loved me and denied the whole thing....

only one person who wasn't related to me make me cry like i just did i thought he was just a crush but....shit dude...i did not excpect that

sigh

this weekened is going to suck i can already tell

current mood: he never did love me

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12:58 am
To every girl crying tonight--you know you deserve better than that

- To every girl that dresses cute --- not skanky

- To every girl who wants to be called beautiful -- not hot.

-To every girl that will spend her whole day -- looking for the perfect present for you.

- To every girl who gets her heart broken because he chose -- the slut instead.

- To every girl that would die to have a -- decent boyfriend. If they even exist?

- To every girl who would just like once to be treated -- like a princess.

- To every girl that cries at night because of -- another heartbreak.

- To every girl that just wants -- to hold hands.

- To every girl that kisses him -- with meaning.

- To every girl who just wishes -- he cared more.

- To every girl who would just once want a guy to give -- their jacket up when they are cold.

- To every girl who just wants -- him to call.

- To every girl who lies awake at night -- thinking about him.

- To every girl that just wants -- to cuddle.

- To every girl that is too scared to put her heart out there again because -- she has been hurt too many times or too badly.

- To every girl who shows how much she cares -- and gets nothing back.

- To every girl that thought maybe this could be -- the one.

- To every girl that believes -- in her dreams.

- To every girl that would do anything so she could -- achieve those dreams.

- To every girl that laughs -- at stupid stuff when she actually doesnt think it is funny.

- To every girl who is just looking for that one and only -- and is having a rough time along the way.

- To every girl that has been cheated on because -- shes not a slut who gives it up to any guy.

- To every girl that doesnt want a guy who -- not just plays with her emotions but actually cares about how she feels.

- To every girl that fell for all the lies -- only to find themselves alone in the end.

- To every girl that gave her heart away -- to have it shoved back in her face.


--If you are a girl that thinks this is true.. repost as "To every girl."

--If you are a guy that thinks every girl should try to think about even a few of these things...repost it as "I am looking for this girl."

--If your a guy thats taken repost as "I have this girl."

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Friday, June 23rd, 2006
6:05 pm - your so predictable...
i feel ok right know...

but i think i'm changing


i mean i had a wierd thing happen to me today that was excrutiatingly akward >>

and i didn't realize i was doing it

i was in the bathroom (keep in mind that i have NO self esteem) looking at myself wondering if i can get any uglier when i run my nails up my stomach watching my pale skin glow red

'wtf? why did i do that...it feels...good'

i almost felt releaved when i watched my skin glow red

so i did it again except on my arms

then my legs

then my stomach again

then my back

i started crying and then laid down on the ground in a ball

'why the hell am i doing this?'

i felt so violated and unwanted at that time i mean...after me being in doubt with mike i've been really wierd lately

like i've been pushing everyone away and wanting to be alone and just wanting be be...asleep i mean sleeping kicks ass no one yelling at you (unless your having a nightmare)and everyone loves you or hates yu or its just all black.

but 2 people have been trying to crack my shell and i love them to death



thank god chelsea and Xavier are there for me

Kyle too

but what bothers me is that Xavier likes me so its kind fo akward when i tell him i'm upset

the same with kyle so i only tll them my surface problems but its so damn deeper

chelsea i haven't talk'd to in forever which makes me sad... ;_;

not to mention the fact that i have been crying spontaniousley for the past 4 days.

i mean i feel like all my problems that i have been ignoring are falling on top of me all at once and i can't fucking breathe

i'm sure this wil pass though ^__^ i sure hope it does

current mood: hmm...

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Saturday, June 10th, 2006
11:29 pm - all i fear means nothing...
alright i am so freakn sad right know...i can't even see straight



Mike you know the wonderfull pervert

the loveable idiot


i just found out he was just going to use me

and my friend told me this

he said that they were talking and mike said 'i could fuck every girl in this school'

and of course Ryan goes 'eww dude you want 2 fuck a 6th grader?!'

'no dumbass i mean the 8th graders'

'oh'

'and there all going to Riverview next year'

i loved him

I WAS GOING TO GO BEHIND MY FRIENDS BACK AND NOT TO MENTION MY PARENTS JUST TO BE WITH HIM!!!! I FUCKING GAVE MY EVERYTHING TO HIM

WHATS HE DO WITH IT!?!??

FUCKING SHREDS IT INTO PEICES

i really loved him

he made me feel wanted and loved

like i mattered

and what does he do!?

BRAKES ME

i really loved him damnit i mean jesus christ he said he would make me stop hurting myself and that he would make me smile again not the fake smiles i pass out to everyone

he could see right through me

he made me tremble

he made me laugh

and know he makes me cry

i should have known better then to trust him after his past relationships i should have just not thought he would change

i'm an idiot

a fool

i mean....thats just so...so wrong

how could he do that?!?!

Kyle said he'd kick his ass for me but i said not to

i cried for like ever

Since mike made me feel so great about myself know that he's gone...

i feel gross
ugly
unwanted

i can't even look in the mirror without wanting to break it because of the grotesc image i preseeve

i just want to break it with my fist and feel the pain of the glass

god...i've never felt so damn unhappy

i'm such a fool to think that he'd change i'm a fucking fool

your so predictable mike your so godamn predictable

i'm done with this shit i'm not gonna fall in love anymore

everytime i try to fall in love they all want to know why i'm so broken why am i scared what am i afraid of i don't even know i tried so hard to figure it out but it all came crashing down i've been dreaming that you would come back but your never coming back....

i can't see that goofy smile or that stupid mohawk that you have ever again because i know that if i do i'll just cry because i can never have it or call it my own.



but beggers can't be chooser's i suppose

welp..on a somewhat lighter note i think my dad is trying to sneek alchol behind my back

nope that wasn't lighter at all

TODAY F****** SUCKS

i'm just going to cry it out hopefull then the pain will go away

current mood: crushed

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